Having the car, so far, is not as bad as anticipating it. Dad got me an ‘03 Mitsubishi Galant. It’s really weird to look at it and think ‘hey, that’s my car.’ Really, really weird. I drove us to the grocery store today, in the rain, without panicking. I guess that’s a good sign. I also really want to go out and do something, but not quite enough to actually drive anywhere. Tomorrow I need to get new shoes, though. Driving in slip-ons is a bad idea.

I named the car Silverbolt. He’s actually really comfortable. We’ll see how I do with highway driving, but I like driving him around quiet streets. He’s almost a foot skinnier than I think he is, which is good. And his nose is right where I expect it to be. Not sure where his butt is yet. Dad said I drive a lot better than the last time he rode with me, but that’s not saying much. :) I need to practice taking corners again. Never have been terribly good at that part. Merging onto the highway will be… fun. Need to remember to use my side mirrors.

It went from searing heat to being so chilly my nose is going numb. I like it. :) Gonna curl up in bed under a quilt with some tea and Transformers Animated. I think my obsession is settling a little - it’s not driving me to distraction anymore, it’s just a fun thing I enjoy. Except for when Megatron talks. I adore his voice, especially when he’s manipulating people. Which is all the time, really.

Classes start the day after tomorrow. I need to buy my books still, and get a bento box and thermos. And a parking pass, ahaha. I’ll do that now.

Having anxiety-related sleep issues that may also be directly related to impending car. Most people look forward to their first car. I am wondering what the hell I was thinking when I turned down the housing offer from school. (I was thinking it would triple the semester’s costs, actually.) My big issue is not wanting to test drive it. I understand the guy trying to sell you the car usually goes with during a test drive. This is a no-no for me. I don’t do passengers. I can’t talk while I drive. I have a hard enough time remembering that steering and forward motion happen at the same time. And Dad’s buying from a dealership, so basically it’s guaranteed to run, which is all I really care about. I think I can handle driving to school, because I’ll be alone (except maybe merging onto the highway, ugh). But test driving is… no. I can’t handle the thought of it. It makes me sick and shaky and I shut down and go into total avoidance mode.

yaaaaaay phobias

I’ve been weirdly social this summer. Not so much in-person social, but I’m really active on Facebook, Twitter, and my other blog. And there was some in-person social stuff too. It’s been a pretty good summer. A lot of scary stuff is going on in the next few weeks, and I’m really anxious about starting school again, but it’ll work out.

For some reason I wanted to blog about how weird it is to have long hair. I had it long a year and a half ago, cut it to get the last of the red dye out, and then just let it grow again. (There were some haircuts in between, actually… My hair grows horribly fast.) I’ve taken to braiding it back or tossing it in a ponytail just to sleep, because nothing hurts more than a neck that’s been held at an odd angle all night because I was lying on my hair funny. Even braided, it’s down to the bottom of my shoulderblades. Weird. I’ll get it cut eventually, because I actually like how I look with reasonably-long hair but after a certain point it just looks silly, but I’ve always wanted to grow it out to waist-length at least once.

Still obsessed with Transformers. Dad has apparently realized I’m in it for the long haul, because he’s started learning about them just to be able to have a conversation with me. Dad is awesome like that. He still knows a surprising number of random things about anime. Of course, it helps that I appealed to his robotics obsession/hobby… :3 It is intensely hilarious to talk to him about Starscream, for some reason. I… don’t really know why!

I think one of my classes is about the geography of Japan. I am vaguely intrigued by this, unlike the stupid History of Music Appreciation 101 or whatever. Also augh Biostatistics, auuuuugh. Auuuuuugh Chemistry. Stupid semester of gen-ed classes. >:( Well, it’ll be over in three months and then I can take fun classes. Just gotta do good with these ones. Which, duh, of course I’ll do good. 3.5 in two different schools so far, I can totally handle this one. …I hope. D: