I just wrote a 3-and-a-half page paper debating philosophical and moral concepts regarding human euthanasia, and I did it in 3-and-a-half hours. And it is a good paper, and from the viewpoint that is supposedly the hardest to do, and I don’t even care if it’s exactly what the teacher wanted because it is AWESOME. And I did it while hopped up on DayQuil and Advil! A WINNER IS ME.

P.S. IT IS NOT EVEN DUE TOMORROW.

So there is this ridiculous and adorable story in which a person is turned into a cat (this is my equivalent of dime novels, okay, it’s brain-turns-off kind of enjoyment) and it’s cute and adorable and at one point he plays Monster On The Other Side Of The Sheet, and now I feel all happy and fuzzy and want to be home so I can curl up in my bed and get Neti to munch on my toes.

This morning I was complaining about being able to feel the congestion in my chest, had a coughing fit, spat out a glob, and said “Oh hey that feels a lot better.” So. That’s pretty much how my day is going. I managed to find all the resources I need for my presentation, so hopefully tonight I’ll finish up the outline to my satisfaction, and then tomorrow and Monday can be all about that paper. As long as I don’t get worse, this might work out okay.

It was gloomy out today and I went and gathered bunch of moss and lichen and then got really excited because a piece of mossy bark I took from a dying tree had itty bitty basidiomycota on it. I love the moss, too, it’s my favorite kind. The tree itself is neat - it’s still alive, still budding and all, but it’s got a hole clear through the middle that you can see the sunset through. But anyway, adorable little mushrooms in the midst of my favorite moss would be AWESOME so I’m hoping they grow more. :3 Mycota are strange, so we’ll see.

Definitely sick. :\ Not getting worse or better, just… sick. I hate being sick. I only have the two symptoms, but the secondary effects are less than fun. :\ Dizzy, nauseous, sore throat, aching joints (including my spine ahhhh)… yeah. Sick sucks.

What’s really bad is that I need to do a lot of work this weekend. I have to write a 4-page paper from start to finish (I’m not even sure of my topic yet ahaha) and polish up a presentation and its outline, which ridiculously enough has to have citations and everything. Uh. Yeah. My presentation is on origami, and I’m using all common knowledge stuff, so I had to go take out some books from the library and look up the stuff I already know. Like, origami cranes are a symbol of peace! If you fold a thousand it’s a symbol of a wish!

So yeah. Still sick. Send tea. ;_;

Ahaha, Ally reminded me that, you know, there is this stuff that helps with fevers, it comes in little pills… So the fever is a lot better (a good night of sleep helped that too) but I’m hacking stuff up intermittently soooo I’m still kinda worried. I am paranoid about coughing up stuff ever since… was it last break? Anyway, I started coughing stuff up and then I couldn’t breathe and being me I hid it instead of going to the doctor even though I have insurance sajhgdfkdafjhg why do I make no sense. D: But anyway it’s not bad right now, just a little mucus, I can feel the congestion when I breathe in deep but it’s not bad. Gonna hit the campus store and see what they have for medications. I’m usually anti-meds but my paranoia takes precedence.

I’m not sure if I’m sick or if I’ve just had too much coffee and too little sleep. It’s not a huge deal if I am sick, thankfully. Tuesday is my next big day, I only have one class on Mon+Friday. I can sleep in late and everything. Just gotta remember to do my AmGov homework tonight and print it up - when I do that I can take out those Origami books for my presentation thing next week. Note to self: do that tonight. Food and nap first.

I don’t really feel sick, just… slightly feverish and dizzy. And I keep coughing for no good reason. :( Don’t want to be sick.

Why do vegetarian recipes/cookbooks always seem to include meat substitutes? Is it really that impossible to make a meal without meat? I think not. And I’m not talking about limiting yourself to salads, either. There has to be a middle ground.

I’m still adjusting my proportions of meat/starch/veggie in my meals, but I find that even when I’m looking at the meat/starch stuff and going “mmm that looks tasty” it ends up tasting like greasy ash to me. Part of it is, well, it IS cafeteria food… but part of it is that meat just tastes bad, and processed starches just taste worse. Hamburger buns are right out, desserts are limited to canned fruit (even ice cream tastes gross, stupid sugar), all sauces are just nasty… The most reliable good-tasting food is a pile of spinach, kidney beans, olives (green and black), chickpeas, beets, baby corn, and maybe some bell peppers, topped with cottage cheese and a dribble of either honey or balsamic vinegar. But I keep trying regular food, because I’m a masochist like that (and I need more protein).

Tai chi is freaking awesome - we did some qigong yesterday and man, was it fun. :D I love the names for the moves. You know that crane thing? We did that, only it was AWESOMER. Yes. I said it. Awesomer. We also did a thing called something like Pushing The Ocean Waves, it was remarkably good for my knee. After class I felt all limber and warm, and since I had started out the day thinking “damn, my knee is stiffening, this is gonna be a bad one” I am now totally a convert to stretching out in the morning. :D Also I can balance on my left foot but not my right, wtf?

It went back down temperature-wise so it’s freezing at night, but it’s spring! :D I really, really want to be home right now. I miss home. But sadly spring break isn’t for a while, and it’s so short there’s no point in coming home so I might as well ask to stay. Sigh. But eventually I will be home! And then I can go on the Heritage Trail and to that cliff on the other side of town and maybe bully people into going to Franconia Notch~ I’d be sad though, because the last time I went the Old Man was still there and I keep forgetting that he’s gone now. But I really, really want to explore the area around the Heritage Trail. :3

Have decided to withdraw from Rock Climbing. Feel stupid and fat because of it. Am comforting myself by staring at my transcripts and UNH’s biology curriculum. Am also wishing their Zoology department site wasn’t broken. Am also also wishing I could take a class at the Shoals this summer. May settle for Chem1 (SIX HOURS A DAY THREE DAYS A WEEK WHAT) or maybe Psych Statistics, which is apparently required for EVERYTHING. Was feeling bad about being essentially a sophomore but still needing freshman classes, but then realized this means I get first pick when registration rolls around. Am still waiting to hear from UNH RE: admissions. Oh, transfers deadline just got pushed back to May. Right. So uh… there’s that then. And yet the housing stuff is already due… Colleges make no sense.

I r ded from gym. x_x Tai Chi and Rock Wall Climbing both started today. I may have to drop out of the latter. I just… cannot do it. I’ve got a date with a classmate to go in and practice tomorrow, so I guess we’ll see how it goes with less pressure. I honestly though Rock Climbing was on Wednesdays. I wouldn’t have signed up if I’d known it was Thursdays. I literally only found this out yesterday when I showed up and there was no class. Ah well. It does make for a really long day, though. I just… I feel mentally down, and physically broken, even though I barely got two feet off the ground. We ended up traversing, that is moving sideways along the wall, and I didn’t get anywhere at all with that. I feel fat and ungainly and stupid and scared and it just kinda sucks. But I also feel challenged and determined, so… I don’t know. Practice tomorrow, we’ll see how it goes. Tai Chi was neat, too, but… she wants us to go barefoot. It sounds so stupid, because I love being barefoot, but… my toe is scary-looking. And it seeps plasma and clotting stuff all the time. So… I don’t know. Today was just a very intimidating day. Why are Tuesdays and Thursdays so busy? What was I thinking? Wake up at 7, chug a SlimFast and try not to hurl (damn my morning stomach), rush across campus to Tai Chi at 8, rush back across campus to Bio lecture at 9:30, hurry up and wait an hour and a half for Moral lecture at 12:30, eat lunch at 2 when Moral lets out, go right to HuComm across campus, come back across campus and chill for an hour or so, go back across campus for Rock Wall Climbing at 6:30, eat a deep-fried dinner at 8:30 since the dining hall closes at 7, unwind for an hour and then it’s 10pm and I’m bone-deep tired.

I do think I honestly need a real backpack at this point, too. I need to start carrying a change of clothes so I can change between Tai Chi and Bio. I dunno, maybe I’m just down because I’m so tired. Two new gym classes and twice as much running between campuses? Yeah. Tired. I may have to stop going to breakfast and just sleep in until 10 on the other weekdays. But then I’d never get up for Tai Chi… XD Oh the horror of my life, I know. Cry moar.

So there is this guy attending my college, okay? He’s very clearly mentally disabled in some way, but he’s awesome - he’s always absolutely delighted with everything, and I mean he’s attending college by himself so clearly he’s awesome. But… he skips. A lot. Which is cool when he’s outside or whatever, okay? I have no problem with skipping. I like skipping. But he does it all the time. At night. At one in the morning. In the middle of the day. How do I know this? Because his room is above mine. He skips a lot. In circles. Sometimes he wheels a chair around the room. Usually he just makes happy noises. It is, ever so slowly, driving me mad. It’s not terribly loud, so any kind of background noise drowns him out, which is why I am considering asking my brother for some MP3s from whitenoisemp3s.com for my belated birthday present (plus, they’re awesome - non-looping hour-long tracks of various things made by a foley artist). But seriously. Just loud enough to intrude. Constantly. Why, why did I think a dorm room was a good idea? D:

That said, everything else is going quite well. XD When I start bitching about unimportant annoyances, you know life is good.