My computer spontaneously restarted after I ran the virus scan last night. I lost a dozen icons I’d been working on, and a half-dozen IM RPs I had wanted to save. What the fuck, Toboe. You’ve never restarted after a virus scan before.

I am feeling very fucking stressed.

Ah, that’s right, it also ate my list of things to do which I wrote up so that I wouldn’t feel I needed to remember and stress about it and now panic is setting in. Itemized list, I need an itemized list! ARGH.

Filling out applications is scary. What if my handwriting isn’t good enough? Will the slight crinkle at the top of the paper penalize me? Why did all the printers run out of ink the instant I touched them, even though the sensors said they were fine? Also, what the hell did I do with my transcript? I can’t get another until my alma mater opens for the next school year. And the stupid school messed it up - there are E’s on a semester I appealed, and the appeal went through because I’m marked as having 0 absences. What the fuck. Give me a grade.

So, in short, AHHHHH. I want need to have these done and in the mail by Tuesday. My mind is reeling - I just have to find the transcript, write some short answers, and get nice envelopes and write checks. And print the essays, which will be an adventure to itself - I used twice as much paper TRYING to print the applications than they actually used in the end.

In other news, I am being weird and parting my hair to one side. It covers my right eye completely. I look sorta like Muraki, except completely not. It amuses me. *pulls hair into a ponytail* …Wow, I really look like Muraki. Steph, remind me to do this next time I visit. XD

That was a nice interlude. Back to the applications!

I watched a video of Discovery launching, as filmed from one of the escort jets. Wow. Just… I thought the footage from the ground was magical, the shuttle igniting and roaring up into the blue… But that was incredible. The video trembled and jittered and the sky behind the shuttle slowly faded to black until pah, the solid-fuel rockets peeled off, and then the three blue circles of the thrusters lifted up until it was just a pale dot against the black of space. Just… wow.

And then NASA grounded the shuttle fleet.

*sigh* Dad’s passed on his love of space to me, but at this rate, I won’t see another liftoff until I retire. The shuttle is obsolete, but they’re not making anything new fast enough - which is sad, considering a great many pivotal (or just damn useful) inventions came directly from NASA’s research.

In other news, there is no other news. Nothing to say here. You can stop reading, there won’t be anything else. Why are you still reading? Go away. Words in a line do not necessitate reading- thank goodness, or else we’d all be trapped in the Livejournals of teens who think black-on-black is the best color scheme ever. If you must use black, jazz it up a bit with bright colors, like blue and gold and white. Not just text colors mind you, but big blocks of bold backgrounds, standing out starkly against the black void. Or keep the black to your text. I have no objections to black text. When used on a light, cheerful background, it’s quite pleasant and readable. But colored text is also quite nice, and if you can get that neat shadow effect, that’s also pleasant on the eyes, unless you use very strange colors like puce and teal. Don’t you agree?

I apparently learned a lot more from German classes than I thought. I’ve forgotten most of the vocabulary, but I recall obscure bits of grammar, like something about when the verb affecting the subject gets conjugated, if there’s another verb it ends up unconjugated at the end of the sentence… I also remembered command forms. Whee! (I still hate genders.) The reason all this is being mentioned? In my RP, my character started speaking in German. Only one of the other players knows any German, so we were babbling back and forth and translating for the others. Great fun. XD

A man who looked like an odd modern Jack Sparrow came in today. I am certain he did it on purpose, although it lent a certain air to his rather, ah, interesting state. I am quite sure he was high. (This is not usual for one of my customers, mind you. I am growing very used to various states of bizarre.)

Also, I got a steel penny. WOOT. *plays with it happily* I wish I knew what I did with that partial-clad dime. A few extra bucks is always good, and I’m getting enough interesting coins to make a trip to a dealer worthwhile.

I feel like I’m gonna throw up. This is bad, because I just ate.

I cannot wait to get out of this house.

Okay, settled now, got some water. Blargh. The FMA movie came out - still waiting to get hold of it, drat it all, but apparently it is not as awful an ending as I expected. I am not sure if I am disappointed.

Think I’ll write today.

Also, much thanks for the reassurances. ^^; Surprisingly, the near-miss is not bothering me very much, except for an increased appreciation of irony.

Wow. I achieve my big goal of the moment, give myself a reward, nearly die because I suck at driving, and then it all went sour. Sour enough that I am listening to angry music at a volume that will surely make my head throb in half an hour when I’ve calmed down.

I have a song titled “Die Motherfucker Die” and I am not afraid to play it.

Oh god I almost killed us.

DONE. Shipped it to the betas. Then I do my final draft and send it in.

…

System crashing! Reboot! Reboot! dksjfragfkldr

Okay, yeah, I need to really stop breaking every time I think about that. ^^; I keep looking at my room and instead of thinking “I should pick this up” I think “I should start packing and figuring out what I want to bring with me”. Except I really don’t expect I’m going to get into the colleges that involve moving out until next year or something, so… Yeah. It’s awkward. T_T I want to goooo. (Nothing against my family - I’m just as ready to leave the nest as you are to get rid of me, is all.)

Sooooooooo… There really isn’t anything else today.

OH YEAH. THE FMA MOVIE COMES OUT TODAY.

… …

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I’m doing well! Yeah, uh, parents wanted it done on Sunday night. But I’m nearly done! And then I get to maul people and have them beta it, and then I edit and I’m DONE!

And then I finish the rest of the applications and send ‘em off. HOLY CRAP I AM GOING TO SEND OFF APPLICATIONS TO COLLEGES ABDJSFKSDIGHWROINH

Fatal error in Lisette

Reboot? Y/N

Why am I stuck. Again. This is not that hard. It is two pages. How the fuck do I expect to do college if I can’t write two pages of bull?

…Possibly because it is very important, and for once in my life it is not bull. I am being utterly truthful, to the point, and just looking at the damn essay makes me cringe and feel naked.

Also, I am very cranky and upset and stressed, and I shall not be good talking company. My apologies. I only realized this after having a fit or two at friends. (I need to talk to Heid, is all. Heid is my essay muse. Heiiiiiiiiiderich~!)

Holy crap, look what the release of HBP did to LJ’s mood. *stares* That is so cool. (Input “excited”, by the way.)

Anyway. Still haven’t read it. Need to do work now! I am doing cool important things. Really.