I seem to be emotionally delicate today, as was proven when I looked at hime1999’s latest drawing and burst into tears. *sniffle* Seriously, as soon as I realized what it was a drawing of, waterworks. I hate it when I’m all femmy and uke like this. *rubs bitterly at eyes* I nearly did this last night, too, when yet another guy asked for my number. Fucking asswipes.

I wanted to go to the library today, but I’d have to walk. Bleh. Two miles in this snow, not sure if people shoveled? …Wait, I wouldn’t have to worry about not getting snow on my pants for work. Oooooh. I might go. We’ll see. The anime store is there too… They might have FMA Trading Arts… *eyes wallet* I don’t know if I have any more cash. Hm. I’ll have to check my various hiding spots, aka places I dump my pants and money falls out. XD

Karie, I think Ed got lost on the way over. Or maybe… Wait, Al’s gone! I think Al went to head him off. Check the trains! XD

Shan: SR was $5, but there was other stuff I don’t remember. Like, um, KH. That was $20. So there’s $5 unaccounted for, but that’s close enough. So there. XP Just call it a dollar for every meal you’ve bought me, or something. <3 I'll weasel the stuff you want out of you someday. (I'd buy you a PS2, but even I don't have that kind of money.)

So yeah. Been thinking about cons and cosplay, for the first time in a little while. I think I know how to make the the Al armor now. Chicken wire, super glue, and craft foam. And shiny cloth and craft glue. And some electronics. >_> And football shoulder pads. And some leather. And biker gloves a few sizes too big. But, um, I think that’s everything. ^^;

Yeah, I really want to go to the anime store. I think I’ll ask Dad to give me a ride, ‘cuz even though he said he had to do schoolwork he’s just sleeping. Or Mum, but Mum is busy. Hmm. Maybe I will walk. Snow! X3

I should really work on Arel’s gift. Ehe. ^^; But… Materialistic glee! XD

ETA: Niisan, I’m gonna go to the library. Do you have a pen I can borrow? I think the cats ate my last one. Ah, and are the notebooks still in the desk, or did you move them again? Last time I saw one, you’d started writing in it upside down and missed the paper. (I copied that part back in, because I didn’t think you’d remember it was on the table and not in your book.)

My shift today didn’t end well. Suffice to say that I should have called home for a ride rather than risk walking alone. I’m still a little twitchy.

The rest of my shift was good, though, and I bought myself a calendar despite already having one. This one is a tropical island one, and I want to scan in parts of it and do some massive photo manip. XD See, there’s this palm tree that sticks out sideways and curls up at the end… X3 I want to make a blog layout of it. That would be nice. The black and white is getting to me.

Shan: I owe you for Soul Reaver, at least. I think altogether I might owe you something like $30, plus general wanting to spend money on you. For shame. You should want more things. (Oh snap, I still need to send the check to LinuxMag. Ehe.)

Nicole: I still like Envy, but he’s predictable. I started liking him because I understand him, but once you understand someone completely, they’re a little boring. Sure, he can change form, but that only goes so far. He’s shallow and hateful and petty, and I certainly love him, but Kimbley is much more interesting. Kimbley is broken and dangerous and has human wants and needs. And my god, ever since that first glimpse of him in prison, I’ve been addicted to his eyes. They’re so lovely. XD They also make me wonder; there’s quite a few people with golden eyes in FMA, although I think Kimbley (and maybe Hughes?) are the only non-Elrics with such. I wonder if they’re related.

*yawn* I think I’ve wound down enough to attempt to sleep. I’m utterly exhausted, at any rate, and the guy taking the shift after me was 20 minutes late. I should have left. I didn’t. Ah well.

I did, however, find out that one of my regular customers is a cute little Japanese man (and I mean this in an entirely non-derogatory way, disclaimer disclaimer), and he was delighted to find out that I’ve taught myself a certain amount of Japanese. I didn’t dare actually speak any, but we comisserated on not having anyone to speak Japanese with. Ah, irony.

I wrote four pages of crossover this morning. This crossover is eating my brain. Once I’m done this segment, I might write a final bit about Ed going home, just to shut up the ficbunnies. But then, writing Riku and Sora is so nice. But I can’t focus on the FMA stuff I want to write. *fret* But then, I did tell Miss Arel I’d write this part… Well, I’ll finish this and see what happens.

Ne, Karie, send Ed over here again and don’t listen if he tries to tell you I’m overworking him or something. I need him to flesh his part in this one out. XD

Sleep. I’m out.

Shan: Don’t you dare spend money on me, young man. I have plenty of my own. XP And I still owe you. So nyah.

Karie: Yes, Sora and Riku discovered that it’s better not to mention height around Ed. XD I’m glad you liked the stories, despite the high crack content. They were fun to write.

Nicole: It’s just insanely hard to write that many people at once, is all. ^^; I think that little bit of humor is the best I can do. But yes, the idea of all of them just kinda being ordinary is very tempting. I shall ponder that and see if anything strikes me sharply about the head.

The other part of the problem with the Devil’s Nest group is that my Kimbley muse is overwhelming me. He’s become startlingly real to me, and he’s always there, and I keep getting odd whiffs of him. He smells like oily smoke and sand and salt. I get a little jerk in my gut every time, too, because he’s dangerous, and then I have to forcibly remind myself that he’s not real, even if I have the play of tendons in the backs of his hands memorized. Um. Yeah. I probably sound a little crazy, but it’s true. So yeah. Writing anything with him is getting harder, because he just overwhelms everything else just by being there.

…This is probably not the time to mention that I can see him sometimes, too, huh? I figure it’s like when I heard the voices; just a reaction to my current mental state, an effort to stabilize myself with “outside” influences. Doesn’t say good things about my current mental state, but then, I expected that.

Oh, almost forgot. The bunny, Ivy, died today. I don’t know much about it and I don’t want to. We’ll have to wait out the winter to bury her, though. Ground’s frozen solid. Mum’s torn up, though; it was really her bunny, and they were very attached to each other. I just petted the big white soft thing every now and then.

I started writing in past tense again, which is nice. Present tense was annoying me. (Also, Karie, don’t let your Sora-muse read this next bit. I think I might have traumetized him.)
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I shall be mostly incoherent for the rest of the day. Simply put, laylah_r, goddess of Kimbley and FMA, commented on my lj. Three times. And liked my stories. >_> I been keeled ded. I keep making excited high-pitched noises. And my goodness, that makes two insanely incredible FMA people that have found my lj through Nicole. >_> I have the coolest friends, don’t I? Yes, all of you. Much love. <3

Thank you, Uncle George! ‘Twas very helpful. ^_^ And it was rather startling to remember that you read my blog. Ehe. ^^; Um, yeah.

Geo: Yes, most places only have a little over $5 minimum wage. You happen to be in one of the rare places that actually adjusts their minimum wage according to what people need to survive on. Lucky bastard. XD

Karie: Oooh, an Ed-muse! Too bad I have no Ed-bunnies right now. ;_;

La! I want to eat and sleep. And I want my hands to warm up. ;_; So cold! And I’ve had… a hot dog today. And a lot of water. And hot dogs gross me out, so I didn’t finish it, so I’m reeeeally hungry. Oooh, and I want to write too. About Kimbley. XD I’m so obsessed. And I want to write Nicole something, but I can’t think of what. More Greed, probably… The mahjong idea just doesn’t appeal to me, though. Hmmm. I’ll have to think on this.

I have three paychecks waiting to be cashed. That’s about… $600 sitting there. Half to savings, half to checking! XD I desperately want more FMA manga and the Envy Trading Arts, but I’m restraining myself. But ohh, how I want them! ;_; FMA is just so lovely.

Also lovely is sleep. Nnnngh. Just had dinner, although I had to eat it quickly. See, I’d been napping, and when I wake from a nap I have a brief period where I can eat, and then my stomach is like, RAR. I’m sure I’ve explained this before. ^^;

I just remembered that I still haven’t gotten my Christmas presents from my extended family. They were left at said family’s house, and I guess no one’s gotten them yet. I wish I had them. I could use a nice bit of materialistic glee right about now.

I’ve already made a new friend on lj, whose story I recced a while back. This makes me giddily happy.

I’ve already asked a few knowledgeable people, but in my search for knowledge I ask the general populace: What happens if an employer never gives you a W-4 or any other paperwork, excepting the application? What kind of warning period is necessary before leaving a job like mine? And lastly, in NH, is it legal for an employer to refuse to pay overtime past 40 hours a week?

I should ask my lawyer. That would amuse me.

Also, a new RP-ish thing that has eaten my brain: Coeur d’Acier and fanclub. I think it goes without saying that Broken Eden rocks my socks. Good lord, the direction it’s going in is making me twitch. Ahhh, let Kimbley’s leg be okay! ;_; And I don’t remember where Archer is, and that’s worrying me. And omg Roy will spaz when he finds out who Havoc’s with, and poor Havoc! *huggles*

Not too much else to say. I’m suddenly getting a bunch of fanart, which makes me giddy. Nicole and Miku-chan rock my socks. X3 I like that phrase.

I keep thinking I’ve blogged. This might have something to do with having had no Internet for two days. I DIED. XD

I had yogurt raisins yesterday. I dont usually like a large amount of yogurt raisins, but I ate the whole bag. It was a little bag, though. Like peanuts, only with yogurt raisins. Brr, my fingers are frozen.

Also? Last night, while I was asleep, I pulled something in my upper arm. This was not convenient at work. Couldn’t stretch it out, lift it up, or carry anything significant. It was absurd.

In other news, I am attempting to take over Livejournal. In real news, I haven’t written much. In significant news, I almost lost my brand-new hat today. This would have made me sad, as I look like an intelligent college girl with it on. XD

Also? One of the vendors to my work is Barrett Wholesalers. This amuses me insanely, as they send a woman who brings our flowers. /FF7 reference.

So yeah. I have this cool, nearly impossible idea for making realistic cat ears for people. I wish I could try it, but then I’d be attempting to clean my ears all the time. (Really, that was quite embarassing, and I hope I never do it in public.)

Nicole: Yes, a car phobia! It will be a very amusing story, once I write it. ^^; Let me know when your computer is back. Mine should be free of viruses and the like, as I’m behind a firewall and run virus and adware scans regularly, so hopefully I won’t pass anything to your computer through the filetrans.

Karie: >_> But I’m not pretty. Every now and then someone calls me pretty, and I look at them blankly. Patently untrue, thank you very much please come again. I don’t care particularly about it, I just hate being lied to. ^^; And also, Ed used his automail as a pillow at one point in the manga, so I think he’s just a sprawly type. This amuses me far too much. X3

So yeah, I really have nothing significant to say. I feel very tired and wiped-out, and I hurt. Bad cut under my thumbnail, various miscellaneous cuts on my hands, and a pulled something in my arm/shoulder. I might give myself a pedicure. Not out of any need to spoil myself, mind, but because my feet are painfully dry and tend to bleed when I accidentally kick something. Curse my dry skin. (My hands do this during the winter as well, but I’ve been taking far better care of them.)

Stubble: check.

*gestures wildly to wave away a moth and bumps into the ears of her cat-hat* Wha- MUST CLEAN!! *attempts to clean ears and remembers that they’re not real* …Oh. Right. I feel silly. >_>

*ahem* FANART OMG OMG. These are, officially, the second and third fanarts I have ever received. The first was for “Lost and Found”, my first FF7 ficlet, which was then archived at Sephiroth’s Sand Castle. The owners, By and V, made the fanart, and I died of preteen happiness. Now I have FMA fanart involving Kimbley making things to boom, and I die of young-adult happiness. XD Ah, Nicole, what would I do without you? I’d probably never comment on really cool people’s blogs, for one. (I’ve already started your request, and it’s coming along fairly well. In a few moments it will be very odd, as I will have all of Greed’s bitches in one room at the same time and teasing him, but for the moment I am amused by Greed’s phobia of cars.) Oh, and I just made your Vodka art my wallpaper. XD Love!

Speaking of requests, Karie, your gift is almost done! (The text one, that is, as the other one is staring blankly at me. ^^;) I just have to write… probably another page, knowing how wordy I can get. So it’ll be about three pages when I’m done. XD It’s so long! I usually write only one page. I am very pleased by this development, although it means that I have to write things in multiple sittings now. I can do a page in one sitting, but after that my attention span drops exponentially. XD

I was staring at my Naruto whiteboard the other day, and I got the coolest idea. I want to make FMA whiteboards, except the Al one will have a hunk of metal behind the drawing to make it a magnet-board. XD I don’t really think it’s a viable idea, but it would be so cool.

*deletes rant about work*

I think I’m going to start posting my fics on my lj. The poor thing doesn’t get enough use. ^^; It basically only exists so I can gather my favorite lj people and stories in one place. Ehe.

Kayla: It is a little-known fact that I can read while I sleep. XD This explains how I get things done, as otherwise my days would be whiled away in books. Heh heh.

Geo: I need 46-50, but don’t bother with 51. Seriously. I am going to refuse to watch that. I don’t care if Envy is cool in it or that it rocks, too many awful things happen and it’ll drive me over the edge. (I’ll get it from you to burn to CD for Steph and general FMA pimpage, but until then I refuse to even touch it.)

Nicole: You are so cool. Just in a dorkish way. XD I would squee yet more about the fanart, but at this point it would be redundant.

I did indeed end up wearing arrays to work, as they didn’t wash off very well. I got some very odd looks indeed as I handed people their change. ^^; Fortunately, they came off before my manager came in. He was grumpy today. (But no, Karie, I didn’t get in trouble over you being there, although he did get a little nervous when you stood close to the candy. We get a lot of candy-shoplifters. ^^;)

Fortunately for the customers, Kimbley did not go to work with me. I don’t know why. He said something about Roy wearing him out. >_> *kicks Kimbley awake* C’mon, you gotta get up! I need to finish that fic. And the other one with Dorochet and the cute and the puppyness. Oh, stop swearing at me. >.< Don't forget, I have arrays too. ...Faded ones. >_>

So yes, Geo, you owe me. XD I’ll have to think about that one, though. I’m tempted to say “eyepatch!” but that would be too easy. XD I know! Unless you have to wear short sleeves, I want you to get someone to draw Scar’s arm on you. (My own super-long sleeves mostly covered the arrays, so you can hide the arm.) XD I double-dog dare you. Yes, Dorochet and Alexander both.

And Nicole - have I mentioned lately how cool you are? XD I’d do most anything to receive fanart from you. Tell me the idea and I’ll try to write it, although I really can’t promise. (I sympathize on fic being what keeps you going, though; I really would not make it through work some days without mentally re-reading fic and/or plotting new ones.) And oh, how I wish I could ’splode the drunkards that hit on me. *hand-twitch*

Karie, m’dear, that icon makes me sad. XD And by the by, I noticed that Ed sprawls when he sleeps and Al used to curl up into a little kitten-ball. This amuses me entirely too much. (And yes, Niisan, of course we need the Colonel! Without him we’d have been left in Risenbool, and then you wouldn’t be a National Alchemist and you’d never have gotten into Central Library and we’d never have met anyone like Elysia or Nina or… Umm… Niisan, maybe we should have stayed in Risenbool. ^^;)

So yeah. Writing yet more, and enjoying it as much as ever. Which is a great deal. XD I’m terrified this burst of creativity is fading, though. That would suck. I need to finish these two ficlets before it’s too late! ^^; Poor Dorochet would be left with Kimbley’s knee in his back for the rest of eternity.

Yeah, that said, I just discovered that the FMA manga has omake under the sleeves. Even the spine of the book has its own little omake. It scares me. >_>

Gonna go sleep, I think. And read some FMA. Mmm, manga.

Work was actually decent today. I forget why. Oh, but part of it was that I’m being put in charge of the grocery section. I’ll be learning how to do the ordering, and I’ll get to decide what products to get. And I also get to predict how much we’ll sell, etc. etc. But it’s cool, because it means I’ll be keeping my job a while longer. ^^;

So yeah, that ficbunny yesterday? That bit me in the evening? In a few hours, it turned into over a thousand words of things unsaid. And I just finished a second (inferior) part which details some of what’s happened and some of what’s going on, although that should be clear from the first part anyway. Well. Kinda. >_> I left a lot unsaid…

So yes, go read. Minor spoilers for the end of FMA, although I ignored part of it. If it weren’t for the eye, it’d be TWT. ^^; And yes, I know it isn’t clear, but Al is armor and not conveniently restored. I like Al as armor. *pout*

I still want to draw Kimbley’s arrays on my hands. >_> I might, even though I have to work tomorrow and the ink might not come off. …Yeah, okay, this is kinda fun. *stares at arrays* Heh heh. I didn’t do the sun one very well at all. I’m so right-handed. XD But yes, mmm, arrays. Yes, I know, I’m a freak. >_> Hush. Or I’ll touch you. *wiggles fingers* XD Ack, didn’t angle the sun one right, either. The triangle there needs to tilt about -21 degrees…

It amuses me that my Kimbley muse was just trying to convince Karie’s Ed muse that exploding Roy is a good idea. Ed was very tempted. XD Speaking of Karie, I’m writing her gift now. XD So much writing! Ahh, it feels good to write.

Today I commented on a cool person’s fic and read a lot and found Coldfire fic and didn’t manage to get crickets. None of the pet stores have any. Bleh. I was productive and made a shelf for my growing collection of figures, though. (Ack, I should put up my FF7 figures - this is my FF7 shrine, after all, this little space in my closet with my computer. Er. That says a lot about me, huh?)

Speaking of which, I got more Trading Arts today. I keep hoping for Envy and getting stuff nearly as good. (Heck, I’m happy with all of Volume 2 of these figures - even Lust is awesome, and they’re so detailed and well-made.) This time, instead of metallic Hughes, I got regular-paint SOOPER SEKRIT FIGYER! XD It’s utterly adorable. You can see panties, though. >_> *kicks the shota bastards that designed it* But, that aside, omg so kyoot! Sometime I will take pictures. I also got Hawkeye in the Volume 1 box, and she’s next to the Vol. 1 Hughes I got. She looks much better than he does, thank goodness. He looks very odd from that set. >_> Wah, I want Envy! ;_; It’s almost a tangible ache. I’m such a freak. XD

Speaking of freaks, Kimbley is still giving me bunnies. I tossed the second idea I wrote about the other day, but now he’s given me one about eating, and damnit, I have a food weakness. >.< Arrr. So I'm trying to finish the Dorochet piece while fending off this bunny, and then Ed came over to gnaw on Al or something and a bunny LEAPT THROUGH THE AIR AND ATE MY HEAD. *ahem* That is, I got a bunny about Roy and Ed - probably because Karie and I have been disussing them so much. They both confuse me a little (or more than a little) and their relationship (or lack thereof, depending on the day of the week)fascinates me. I mean, Roy's kinda a father figure, but family is so hit-or-miss with Ed, and then there's the whole superior officer thing and damnit, Roy needs Ed to be his friend. It can't be just anyone, because he needs to be forgiven, and he desperately needs a friend. Just one is fine, although he'll get Al in the bargain, I'm sure.

...Ack. Ficbunny. Biting off leg. ;_; *writes* Wait, aren't you Karie's bunny...? Crap.

Will probably post this damn thing tomorrow, but I need to sleep so I don't die at work.

Steph: But there was a bunch and they hate me now. ;_;

Geo: YES OMG fix the names on the next batch, at least, if they're messed up. I would very much like for the alphabetical order to match the numerical order so that this doesn't happen again. I'm still straightening out my mental recount of events. >.< And a LOT happened that needs to be pondered, nevermind my confusion. Rar. That said, omg so crazy dolphin ha ha.